I don't remember the last time I cried this hard. Maybe never. Maybe this is the hardest I've cried. Like I said, you'll never understand. Its too complicated for me to explain. All those things. I know I am all those things. Give up on you? Yeah right. More like giving up on myself. Even my brothers don't describe you that badly. But I guess that's all I am and ever will be from now on. Looks like history is repeating. You're gonna be just like the last one. I'm not gonna get married. I'm pretty sure of that. I'm happy for you.